AngelMom, TTC

Babies in public

  • Cycle Day: 35
  • Days Late: 2ish
  • Pregnancy Tests: 5 (I’ve been impatient) all negative
  • Mental State: Impatient and a bit anxious, but I think we covered that with the amount of tests I’ve taken…..

On my way home from work on Wednesday I was thinking about what to have for dinner. I’ve been going pretty hard on a daytime juice fast– so by the time dinner comes around I’m crazy excited for whatever meal Is going to happen- yay food!! I decided to whisk my husband away for a midweek date– ’cause we can. One of the benefits of not having kids that we frequently cash in on, is that we can do whatever we want without having to also consider a wee one.

We find ourselves at a local Mexican food eatery, and at the table closest to us is an adorable baby, probably 8-10 months old. Adorable. Squishy. Chunky baby!

She locks eyes with me and for the rest of our meal is giggling, smiling and reaching for us. Not an uncommon reaction I might add. My husband is always so cute with little ones, making faces and raspberry noises at them. He’s a giant kid, so naturally they all gravitate to his playful and hilarious charm. It’s the cutest damn thing ever.

There is a nuts part of me that just tends to linger on these fleeting moments and wonder…. where the heck is our chunky baby!?? And it’s hard not to feel shafted, angry, sad, resentful… and a thousand other things. For now, I’m focusing on her beautiful smile, how her giggle echoed and clanked off the walls of the restaurant and how good it felt to draw her attention even if only for a few moments, for whatever reason. She picked us.

For now, I can do nothing more than mentally pin that baby to my vision board… and hope the universe makes good at some point! I’m real exhausted, keeping the faith is my cardio!

Secret Baby Pinterest board full of cute babies!! Helps me remember how exciting and worth it this all could be! Can’t go near the thing though once AF hits!

13 thoughts on “Babies in public”

    1. Heck yah, or impromptu vacation! We took a mini holiday to Vegas recently — boy it was nice to be able to just DO that!

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  1. You are so good. I am rubbish with other peoples babies. I like friend’s babies, and I am completely in love with my sisters kids, but I just don’t have as cute interactions with stranger’s babies.

    I hope your chunky cherub will be on the way soon!!

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    1. Haha I’ve run into my fair share of mongrels too! Lol πŸ˜‚ this interaction was pretty perfect! And thank you, 🀞🏼🀞🏼🀞🏼

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  2. I know this doesn’t even compare, but I do the same thing with dogs πŸ˜‚. I desperately want one, but we can’t get one in our apartment and the house-buying turned into a big flop. I legit go ape shit when I see a “poopy” or a “sweet baby” (Wayne can’t even with me and every single time, points out in his biologist-voice, “That’s not a puppy, but a full grown dog. Young dogs are not referred to as babies…” πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚). But, I have this inate urge to have something to nurture and care for. So, in a really weird way, I can relate.

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    1. Aw man!?? That stinks! We did the same when we were in an apartment, I wanted one soooo bad!! We ended up finding a house to rent because we couldn’t find a home we could afford to buy at the time! I hope that someday soon the right option will present itself to you my dear!! 🀞🏼🀞🏼🀞🏼

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